I worry I may lose the year

Absolutely my fault but so is everything else lmfao So after upper middle school I didn't really research any schools, or researched how to get into public highschools. In the end I ended up in some crappy private highschool, everything sucked and that was it, but the year is now over, and I don't think I can go back since well I attempted mid class and I also tried to do a bunch of things that are embarrassing. But since I didn't research other schools I haven't found any that are good. I look up multiple of them but none are affordable or good or either of those. I don't think I can face my current school again, yet I cannot find any other schools to attend to. I don't want to lose the year either. Maybe I'll go back to my middle school...