Impulsive thought

To start, I used to have a pretty nice phone, enough for everything I needed and wanted, but I got downgraded and now my phone is very shitty. I've been with this shitty phone for more than a year now and I'm getting sick of it. How shitty is my phone? Well, it got low memory, I can't download Instagram, I can't download Twitter, it lags every few minutes, it can't even open its own camera without lagging. And now it has battery problems where the battery runs out wayy too fast. All I can do is doomscroll on it. I have a lot of things I wanted to do, but I can't. And, to make matters worse, I don't have a lot of privacy on it. My mom connected my messenger app to her phone so she can see every texts and my parents like to confiscate my phone on the littlest mistake I made. Sometimes they check my phone, sometimes they don't. So, when they confiscate my phone again one day, I was sick of it because the reason was too ridiculous and I really wanted to buy a new phone in secret. But I've got no money and no j*b, so I can't. But I'm so fed up with it all I thought of starting a GoFundMe, buy it online, set the address to my school and kept it hidden. But I never follow through, because that's a ridiculous reason to start a GoFundMe. I really want to buy a new phone but I just have to suck it up.