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And I crashed out on her, Because I already know she's going to drink again with her friends because she going out with her friends that are alcoholic and her body language and she got helped by her friends lying to me. And we went to an argument and she just ignored my chats and never responded. And here's where I got dissapointed. I vented all mu problems to mt friends and they we're having fun but I just couldn't focus and I don't know what to feel, so I went for a walk to clear my mind and there's a tall bridge near my house and it's high that could be fatal, and that went in my mind, to jump. Idk what got in to my mind but I remembered I'm so tired of everything and nothing's gonna be great whether I'm alive or dead. And so I went for a walk and thankfully one of my friend followed me behind and when we're near a bridge, I stepped up the protective barrier and almost jumped and thankfully, my friend forced me not to jump and I stared, blankly for 2-3mins and eventually broke down. Then the rest of my friends followed and they saw that I'm going to jump so they ran towards me. And I broke down on that bridge for about 10-15mins, I was there long enough.