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First of all this is just a note to myself, a "set in stone" typa thing for me Let me start off by saying this, im SOOOOOO fucking done with "love" whatever tff that shii is cause it aint real. This is not a cry for help or anything this is just for me to look back on in the future So im a 19 yo virgin and I've been in multiple relationships and every single one of them the girl cheated on me so guys if a girl says she wants a "nice guy" bs thats the biggest lie I've heard so get out while you can trying to "support her" nahhh bs No one wants me omfg igg im ugly or some shii or its cause i dont fit into the "6'9, tattoos, muscles, smoking, drinking and partying" type Im on 10+ different dating apps and nothing so i will be deleting every single one of them and just go with my life not seeking comfort in a partner and might be my last post on this app as well cause i thought maybe I'd feel better if i helped out other people, bullsh*t. Im not nonchalant and anyone that knows me will be able to recognize me by the following line: i will buy me a bat like a baseball bat continuously and continuously to break stuff and the bat until i get all of this anger out (this is real btw i am going to do it, might even order it rn) If you have read to this point, bless your heart and life. none of that "bless your day" shii cause what if some bad shii happen tmrw nahhh i want you to have an amazing life the person who is reading this. Anyways yeah thats me, this is my retirement letter from "love" and no i wont approach woman cause i have anxiety like crazy anxiety and I dont even wanna have sex like i juss wanna be loved and taken care of and I'll return the love and even spoil tff outta her but nope and i do have some internal "mommy issues" so i am a very obsessive guy, not controlling, obsessive. but yeahh fvck life atp. blessings to everyone