Am I a lesbian Trans girl or just a weird straight guy?

So, I've been a long time wondering this, sometimes this feeling dissappear and sometimes it come back I've been since young, a more feminine guy, I like pretty clothes, wearing makeup and paint my nails That was pretty confusing for me and I felt like that maybe I were gay, but no, I never been interested in any man, always liked, and fell in love with woman And in general, I just love lesbian couples, in media or even in real life, i think they are really cute, but every time I saw any lesbian couple, I kind of feel bad, like, I never gonna have this, a relationship with a woman in that way Also, most of my crushes were lesbian girls, what made more confused, me, being a more feminine guy, always liking more masculine girls (and most of them, lesbians) What make me wonder if I am not actually a Trans lesbian I dunno, it feels weird, and I don't feel like if I were Trans, any girl would like me, and also being a feminine guy, I dont feel like any woman, or the kind of woman I like, would like me back Basically, I made this account just to vent this fact about me that nobody knows (English isn't my first language, so sorry if something is confusing or wrong)