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I very much new to this app, so I'm not sure if I'm using it right. Anyways, yeah, I don't know how to feel anymore... I can't quite explain it, but I just don't. Every time I get this feeling that nobody loves me or nobody wants anything to do with me, and a part of me knows it's true, and the other part is just numb. I don't know what this is, but what I do know is that I just want to feel normal again. I don't want to be like this anymore, and I think it's affecting how I see everyone because lately I've been pushing away the people that actually care for me, and I don't even know why. I find it so weird that I do feel this way because I have everything. I mean, not everything, but I have friends that make me laugh and feel loved (but not at the same time), I have a wonderful family, and I have so many other things I'm grateful for, so I'm not even sure I'm allowed to feel this way. I don't know what's going on with me, but I think I need help.