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I found out reality hits really hard. It's about reality is around you, no matter your family, friends, colleagues and etc. For example, a little confession towards your family. Each of us are an individual, and they are too. So when you express your thoughts, and they are unable to understand and doesn't accept whatever thoughts you are coming thru just because you are in a lower position (such as their kid) or they are fear or lack of understanding the topic. So they will treat you like a person that are higher than you and judge with something like, you are self centered. When the whole conversation is just about realising self thoughts bout fear of death. Nothing related to self centered. Totally nothing. But whenever an deep thoughts conversation started out by me, the first word came out from the other would be 'self centered' and 'proud'. I always felt so funny when I first believe my thoughts that hold back all the thoughts, and share bout life, is a right things. and I like it that way. cause no one would waste their time and patience to understand the others. Everyone in this world.. I could say 90% or 80% of people are talker and not a listener. Body language tells. And the way they shows, that's means they don't mind about others. Because they only value more on other things, human, self and more. And when family told to other that you don't share about yourself, and say they are upset, I started to try. I give hope and try to express... But obviously... ya! I'm right in the first place. But it's worth trying. I learned more, more strong and understanding how the world works. No one, I can say definitely no one are able to let you express who you are 100%. And that's is what I'm experiencing now in my 22 years of life. Who knows... Maybe one day my thoughts would change. But the realisation of reality would not. Not every room was built to hold your depth. Save your standard for those who listen, and keep your silence as your strength.