First styro/baby styro?

I am a very edgy teenager, so this post will be quite edgy as well. It took me a looong time to finally relapse after school ended. Because summer vacation means I have to stay at home all the time, and I can't just rot in my room because I don't have one. I uh, sleep in the living room with my parents. A few days before the school year started I bought like, two (or three???) Box cutters. I FINALLY relapsed at the second week of school (06/16/26), fucking amazing. I kinda got scared when I did it, I did it in my brother's room, since he has night shift work or smth, and mom let me sleep in his room. Anyway, I got scared because I used a new cutter, meaning its sharp, and the cuts took a minute or two to stop bleeding. I have a journal thingy for my cuts, I tape the tissues I used to clean up the blood in there and put dates. Uhhhhh, and then the lowest one, like on my forearm, looked REALLY red. I thought it was just dried blood and fell asleep. After I woke up, I turned the lights on and looked... Ehm... It was like, 1-2mm wide. I've always only done cat scratches soooo this really shocked me. It's been a while since I've done that as I am writing this, so it's kinda healed now.