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For context I'm heavily disordered and underweight (still not my fucking goal weight though) and I don't rlly have metab days so I just label my binges as them 💔 but for my birthday I decided to just not count cals and I regret it SOSOSOSO bad, I'm so bloated and I feel gross and I'm gaining easily, I feel and look like a pig. Whenever I say anything about it though people are like, no no you're not fat, you shouldn't think that way, if you're fat what does that make me??? And it pisses me off, like yes I'm aware of my body dysmorphia but it doesn't change how I see myself and I wish people understood how eating disorders work and affect the brain.