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Is it only me or is it that when Im in a relationship, I expect absolutely everything, breaking up, her cheating on me, he texting somebody else, her liking someone else, is it only that thinks of that? I absolutely love my girlfriend (or do i?) I honestly think I have gone numb about feelings, I don't care if she like somebody else, is shes talking with somebody else, I just don't care anymore, I don't know why but I'm still doing my best even though I myself is holding myself back from loving someone deeply, I don't know why, but I still sacrifice my time and give efforts to her, as if I'm expecting that shes only a stepping stone to something bigger, it's like... It's like Ive gone crazy, I keep trying to predict everything, I'm so sorry for her or am I? I don't know why but I just keep questioning EVERYTHING, tell me. am I crazy?