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I don't care about sex, and nothing related to that , all I just want is someone to hold hands to, to hug, and to have a date with. But it's hard, it really is, I'm just here, existing unfortunately, always making fake scenarios to make me feel better but when I realise I actually don't have someone, it hurts, it really does. I know I might be just a random someone, and I understand, I'm nobody, but all I ask for is advice, please, thank you in advance.