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It's supposed to be darkest just before the dawn. So how much darker does the world have to get? I know the scale and power of evil but there are things hidden from me that even I don't know. I may just be killed before it gets any better. It may never get better. That's my responsibility. It's the responsibility of those like me. I know so much and it's fucking staggering how much power is given to the evil, stupid, and ignorant. People are even respecting the ignorant amd evil as if cowardice and wrongdoing are virtuous. This is the dark world of 2026 I am required to correct. I have some power and I know some effective places where I can apply it but that may be it for me. They may just have those weak spots exposed as traps to kill me. They don't have to kill me quickly either. They can torture me more and kill me as slowly as possible. They already tortured me before. I know what it's like to be locked away in solitary confinement. Locked away alone as your body rots in acidosis. They shine bright lights on you. No clothes. Just steel and concrete everywhere so you can't really sleep. They laugh at you. That's their "safety" and "justice". They knew I was not liable for the charges they put on me. I could have killed myself but I let myself suffer until the doors finally opened months later. I was unable to see the sun in there. No sunrise nor sunset for months at a time. Then people say I'm comfortable just because they sense power in me. They say I'm part of the evil that hates me. I'm just pathetic. I am strong because I sacrificed everything for justice and strength. I have nothing left for comfort or hope. What could that garbage have gotten me anyway? It could have gotten me killed. It could have slipped me of my honor. One of the few sacred and meaningful things I have left. Fuck you. Fuck you with the damnation more severe than the lowest level of hell. Fuck your false gods. Fuck your false pity. Fuck your flase mercy.