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i have two boyfriends. one of them lives in a different country and i love him so much hes everything ive ever wanted except he doesnt let me wear shorts or skirts and wont let me get a tattoo or dye my hair, but when hes good hes SO good. the other lives near me and goes to my school and weve liked each other since 2023 and ive been with him for about two months and hes really sweet and not strict but he doesnt have everything i want in a guy even though i do like him. my long distance relationship promised me to take care of me and look after me and marry me but hes controlling and overprotective. my other relationship isnt toxic but hes not as caring or loving or affectionate. i know im in the wrong for cheating dont get me wrong. i just wanted to let it out.