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So im 19 and never had a bf. Ive fooled around before but ive never had a bf.The thing is i overhear how men talk about women and i get so scared to have a bf bc what if we break up and he tells all his homies my secrets.Like i fr want a man who i can literally be devoted to.I mean ik this is not the norm .But i legit wanna spoil my bf one day and like the only things i want in return is physical affection ,like holding hands , eskemo kisses and stuff.I dont really care about sex. But then the delemma comes with my type .I like huge tall guys ,like ( this is gona be weird) guys who have kinda big pecks yk.And who are really tall. But i am a short chubby person (yes im chubby not fat ,i checked) and all those guys go for the Adriana Lima type .But then again you can be the opposite of my physical type and if ur personality is the one i want then you immediately become 10x more attractive to me. Like i genuinly just want a man who is very soft and gentle with me, and can be funny without making someone else the butt of the joke, and also just super kind and sweet.If i found a guy like that i wouldnt gaf about his looks.