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I been liking this guy since we were 10.. he was my childhood best friend since 6 years old. we dated when we were 11 years old because we both confessed. but then broke up cause we were too young n promised to get together again if we still love each other.. like i think i tried ignoring n just move past him.. i really try but every school i got, he's there too. NO he isnt stalking btw!! he's normal. really normal. i try denying my feelings for him by seeing him as a friend, liking anyone but him.. but then i see cracks from every guy i tried loving. none felt the same way i loved him. then i accept the fact i do love him. we been playing games together, spend time a lot together n flirt... until late 2024 i dated a guy (lets call him dino).. dino was... fun? he's the guy a lot of girl would love at first.. yk sweeg, gentle n caring... but then he changes.. he accused me for cheating ( reasoning: i was reaching out to a friend of me cause its been so long i havent text him n just texting in Instagram allowing dino to make sure tht im not flirting.) n also called me a whore (reasoning: our friend [lemmie call him tay] saying i slept with a lot of guys even when tay said he never said those shit cause tay see me as a sister n would never say shit.) will talk abt this guy next post. but back to my crush, i avoid him bcs the relationship n he respect it too.. but then i found out from his friend tht he liked me. he been liking me n made a playlist in Spotify dedicated for me. the heartbroken i felt was heavy... n rn i been single almost 8 months n wanting to confess my crush of 7 years... this jsnt easy cause... i know i will ruin the friendship depends on his answer.. a yes, i will build a relationship and a no, will make everything.. so awkward.. idk anymore... i love him sm i just cant.. i been carrying this emotions... n need advice on how to confess.