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It’s been such a hard journey. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I fell behind on most of the work because my dad kept constantly making comments about how I should be studying for a career in healthcare, but that’s not what I want, I’ve never been good in that field. My sister recently graduated and landed a job, which just made him get on my case even more. While I was writing my thesis, he barely spoke to me—actually, no one in my family was talking to me. I became a ghost in my own home. This triggered a lot of painful memories from my teenage years. I could barely write anything and spent days crying alone in my room, thinking about what a huge disappointment I’ve become. Now I feel like I’ve let down my thesis advisor, too, someone I care about deeply. I don’t know how to talk to anyone about this, I’ve never been the kind of person who open up, but my thesis defense is on Friday and the work isn't up to par. I just don't know what to do with myself at this point...