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I've hated my step father and I often hope and imagined something bad to happen to him or just die. I don't feel comfortable being near or alone him, I don't like it when he picks me up or drive me to school, I don't like it when he stays in the house with me, I prefer to be alone but not with him. He always gives me the ick, the scare and fear, but even if I often imagine him having a horrible life I always feel bad and guilty. I hope my mom never met him.