a member

Sometimes I wonder if I'm even worth my friend's attention,I wonder if they don't like my presence deep down when they invite me.Who would want me to join them anyway?I'm a terrible friend,I leave when things don't go my way,I leave when things get problematic...They seem more happy when I'm not around,I have a lot of friends!...but I don't belong to any friend group.People around me like that I'm just there for them,they like that I comfort them,they like that I'm a therapist friend,they like that I help them with their problems...they like that someone is there for them,and I'm happy to help!...But why won't they help me when I need them?Why do they dissapear when I need them?Why are they ignoring me when I need them?Why?