life is poop piss and shit rn

you read the title and y'know I'm gonna rant on about some dumb shit again at like 2 am rn. barely the first semester and everything sucks. Gender identity issues on CLIMAX rn as I fucking trek my way through school with terrible pens and my tendency to lose everything I touch. Three tests on one day next week, and I'm sure as hell overstimulated. My friends? Questionable, I barely get along with my classmates and my ties with my closer friends are breaking apart. Mental health is terrible and so is physical like why can't I just pick a fucking STRUGGLEEEE. Love life is a mess, I have a crush on a dude but he's straight, and there will NOT be a straight to gay arc because let's be fr I'm an ugly fuck I am NOT turning anybody homosexual. My grades? Lowkeuinely ass. My only source of comfort as of now is the internet because I can barely trust anyone offline. I miss my ex so bad and we broke up after like two days when we started our relationship because we used to be best friends before.. everything honestly.