Realized that i start to feel desperate after not listening to gf asmr for weeks

Loser lesbian here, very self aware that i am probably not in that stage of my life where i should be in a relationship. I'm emotionally available but lifestyle wise? Eengkk ❌❌❌ It wouldn't be ideal. I've been working on a remote-ish farm for a while and it's been so painfully lonely, i wanna make out and be intimate with a woman, be so head of heels w eachother that it feels like literal fate but no, can't have that shit rn. I am so goddamn lonely lmao. Its so frustrating. It also take sapphics here 3-5 business days to reply on dating apps so i deleted all of them. WHAT EVER. I'll go back to listening to gf asmr so i could sleep again ig