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I can't orgasm during sex and it's really affecting my boyfriend. I feel really bad because I don't want him to feel bad. I try to reassure him that yk it's just my fault I was raped as a kid from 5-6 I didn't really think it affected me but I slowly came to the realization that it did because I get so anxious in regard to sex like I'm never fully relaxed always thinking because my main concern is honestly to just make it enjoyable for the other person. My boyfriend knows this and I can tell it hurts him that I can't just relax and orgasm