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I have this fear of having a name on the internet, to be someone known. Say, if I'd get known for my artworks, there will always be people who would cancel me and ruin me. I've done a lot of bad stuff on the internet and my digital footprint is crazy, my nudes are scattered on the internet and I've made controversial decisions and posts that will really get me in a lot of trouble. I'm afraid to post my artworks, or to be famous with the things I enjoy, like games and such, I feel like some people are out there with lots of blackmail who would ruin me and cancel me if I get a following or if I have a reputation. It's one of the things that's stopping me from committing to the things I really enjoy doing. I don't do the stuffs I did back then anymore, I've regretted those and I want to turn a new leaf, but it would be genuinely so terrible if the stuff I did back then would get leaked. I need someone to share their thoughts on this and on what I should do, or what I should hear, please help me