I wish I was daddy's lil pet

I never experience it. I never date anyone. I'm freshly 18. I wanted it, but I don't know how. I only can touch my self, sometimes still scared. I'm not little anymore, am I? I'm so tired, I just wanna be taken care of, and use whenever you wanted to. And I'm a t-boy, started transition since I was in grade 5. But I always have this thoughts.. since in elementary, I'm such a hyper, but only in my mind cz I dont have any experience with anyone.. all I can think is doing my first time with an way older man. Take me, I want be your good pet. On God, those are all true.