Part 2 of my problem with depression or just bad decisions(part2/3,sorry I didn't though it was this long :/ )

Well, as I was saying in the last post I have very good friends but this one has marked me deeply and I don't know if it's for good or for bad Britt, she is the most active, interesting and trusting person you'll ever meet, but something happened between us and I will explain it in the next point 3.-relationships This is my most important point by far, because I suck at connections in a romantic way . Well um. I will start from the first time I have fallen in love ( real love, I'll post someday what do I mean by this). For context, a friend of mine introduced me to his friend,kimbap and she introduced me to the girl I will fall in love deeply without knowing it, Britt. When we first met, she was timid and she Didn't speak much but somehow we were talking fine at just months of knowing each other, we even had the phone of the other one. But things will start falling apart. I was so stupid and I didn't see the indirecta she gave me I just thought "maybe she is just confused, she will find his real love someday" I liked her and she liked me but I thought she was just confused but ohh boy I was so wrong Some time later she stopped talking to me and she got a bf. I still miss her.