Somethin stupid

I dont really struggle with life, but one thing that makes life harder is anxiety( this is kind of obvious but im jst rantin) (also im a big idiot and dont know if you acrually have to get diagnosed, well i do know but also everyone has anxiety from time to time right? But also theres just people out there who have it worse, okay kinda long rant.) Anyway, I hate not being able to eat at lunch at school, it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach, The thought of eating then the possibility of throwing up makes me feel sick The smell of someones food across from me makes me feel sick-ish This is really only out at public, or when im around others, if im at home im completely okay. When i get too lost in thought and then i start feeling sick Worse at school when theree genuinely not a single place to hide away I always have my waterbottle with me cause it makes me feel safer i guess But also writing this down feels like im confirminf it in a way and i hope this doesnt affect me tmr. So dont jinx me. But also dont jinx me for that either yk