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Ok so im Christian or atleast i think i am ,but i genuinly hate the people in my religion ( yeah christians shouldnt hate blah blah blah) because the all sound like a literal fucking cult .I want to start crying when i think of Jesus and how warm he can be but that can also be my daddy issues acting up .But also i really want to believe that there is someone out there that would do anything for me. But the shot that is said in the bible males me so fucking mad especially when men use it to be racist and homophobic . Like wtf bro. And i dont wanna hate gay people. I fucking love gay people. I meam i watch Korean ,Japanese and Chinese bl for Gods sake ,bc they dont suck eachothers face in the 1st minuste of the ep (ig it depends on the genre) but you see where im getting at?? And im questioning my faith sm rn . Like my own religion feels like a cage .And i smoke and watch two boys kiss and yk what ,i fucking love it .