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my friends n i havent rlly hungout this whole summer n i get it it's a big fg, so recently i tried to make plans n i researched a bunch of realistic options for us to go to and a few would reply that they wanna go and some would ignore it all together but what's rlly agitating me rn is when they say yes they dont seem to ever want to talk abt it ever (to clear things up, set the time, etc.) n i js feel like im being too annoying by asking about it over n over n it js feels like im the only one who actually wants to hangout n my efforts arent being reciprocated. (i pinged the people going personally and i just get seened) it's not just this one time. soemtimes in school and other things too and i try to let it go but it piles up n starts my self isolation for a bit (hours, occasionally days, i know that isnt healthy, im working on it) i think what really hurts is seeing them plan stuff with eo n they reply, sometimes yea i get that its like a double date and u miss ur s/o but shi bro cant i miss my friends? ive been trying to figure out what im doing wrong or maybe im overthinking and ive been seeing reels n stuff that say maybe its not that deep, i get the point but MAN IT'S JSHARD