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Its exhausting living with my family. Its like I can never do anything right. I cant leave but as soon as I can believe me I will. My uncle he gets mad that he has to do something. Not the screaming and yelling mad just the uncomfortable mad where you can to anything and its there. Like if i forgot to do the dishes he'll do them the scowl or slam every door and not talk and be upset for the rest of the week. My grandparents are horrible for eachother. My grandpa is a cheating angry man who is never happy with anything. I found out he was cheating on her 2 or 3 years ago when I saw messages on his phone for an escort and some girl he was meeting. I dont know if my grandma knows. If you show even a little displeasure he'll start yelling but he'll say he isnt yelling and his voice if just like that while he gets all up in your face. There have been several times that he has grabbed me while yelling because I was upset about something he said or did. My grandma is a narcissist who thinks everyone's out to get her and she can do no wrong. Whenever you try to tell her that whatever she said or did was wrong she'll get upset and start crying to make you feel bad. One time while my grandpa was yelling and cursing at me she sat on the couch and cried while he kept yelling and did absolutely nothing to try and stop him. Note my grandparents are not old they know what they are doing. My sister is to absorbed in herself to care about anything else and my grandpa is utterly obsessed with her, its weird. My mom lives in an apartment with her boyfriend i have been thier once or twice. She moved out 2 years ago, she doesnt come over alot but when she does my grandpa is 10x worse. She is all of their worst qualities combined. She will switch from being the worst person in your life to being loving. Its horrible but she is still my mother. Although she has does so much too me and very little for me she is still my mother. I will not forgive her for all she has done, I cant.