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When I was around 8 I went to mexico since my mom wanted me to meet my family members. I did great people I guess. Would I want to go there again? No. Theres something I haven't told anyone, when I was with my grandma, she had animals that she and my sister took care of. There were chickens, pigs and some other animals that I never really got to see. I don't know what is wrong with me back then but for some reason, the chicks made me feel something and I didn't like it. It made me want to hurt the poor animals and to this day I still feel bad for what I did. Before I left my grandma's place I sadly ended up killig the baby rooster that my grandma had. I technically just choked them until they didn't move anymore. I didn't comit anything gruesome because I was child back then but now they still hunt me when I look at my cat. I wonder sometimes what will happen if I did do it, but my imagination is much more stronger To this day I still have those thoughts but are now with my cat. Thankfully I haven't acted on those thoughts and I am now taking care of 3 doves and a cat. They are the love of my life but those thought still linger. I don't know what is wrong with me but I promise you I will not act on that for sure.