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I've always struggled with my metal,for the past 6 years I've sh and my dad knows. The first time he found out was year 1,a teacher told him. He was worried at first but he kinda just dropped it,year 2 a cop told him,year 3 my school counselor and his the gf at the time now my stepmom. Basically he found out every year but never by me and it's not like I was trying to get people to see I sh. The most recent time was just 7ish weeks ago. It was when I was in MEX, visiting family for the month. On our 2nd to last day my step grandpa caught me in the guest bathroom cutting and crying. He called my grandma over and she started to yell at me and cry,she forced me up and sat me down and called my dad to come downstairs and when he did he rolled his eyes. I was bleeding from both my legs,my left arm and my forehead. My shirt was soaked in blood and my face was as well. I carved a cross into my forehead and there was a huge gash in my right leg. (I went too deep lol) He started to record and yell at me,he poured rubbing alcohol into my wounds. INTO not on and he laughed. Since then I still cut and I pretend my left arm is him and my wrist is his throat. Worldlimitilldoa2ndone