Watch me spiral back into depression

Sobbing and tearing up as I wrote this btw. Was having a standard day until a friend hit me up, for context, this friend is my classmate who has held the rank 1 position in our entire grade for two consecutive years straight, me falling 2nd. She's genuinely smart and kind. Competitiveness is inevitable, but apart from that, we've kept it civil and I can call her a trusted friend. We were just talking about catching up with some school work, and suddenly she opened up about how a certain teacher keeps pushing and nagging her in a concerned way. Basically, a whole conversation sparked up about how we both realized a lot of teachers, specifically this one had been trying to pit us against each other. It isn't as emotional as I say it now, but holy shit there's layers to this shit. Apparently, said teacher had also said something to her mom about me saying "oh, I was nonchalant then, but I'll start pushing myself out there starting now". I've always tried to water my words down to avoid offending anyone. And I know that's something I would never say. Yeah idk, uon have the brain capacity to write allat.. we're both under a lot of pressure, both also starting to crack. Might cry into my pillow tn, ok bye..