A letter to my First Love

I wish I could've done better for you, to actually take accountability and love you the way you deserved. Truly a blessing from God, one that I prayed for and cried countless nights for only to be lost so easily. My heart hurts everytime I see you or hear your name. I forever feel guilty about treating you so bad...may God forgive me for breaking your heart and may he show grace upon you. If given the chance I'd treat you better ml, soo sooo much better, create a better us...but since I have to respect you and your decision I'll leave you alone. I just hope you make it and actually become happy just as you deserve and just as I always wished for you. I love you so much.