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I have the worse hatred towards myself. It's been years. It's not that I hate how my body looks or my bare face that have acne everywhere. I just, hate how I am. How I act, how I am with my friends. My personality. The way I shut people out. How I made everyone turns against me so I could disappear w/out no one worrying. Yet, I'm still here breathing. I hate how much my heart knew I'm loved by people, yet my brain says otherwise. I hate it, so much.