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I hate everything and everyone around me, everyone is just so aggravating all the time and it just makes me want to die. And my mom. My mom is the worst of it all. All she does is stay cooped up in her room all day leaving me and my brother to just do whatever, we dont hang out or talk anymore, she just calls me when she needs a favour that she's too lazy to do herself. To be completely honest, I think of her more like an older, pestering sister that's nice when she feels like being. And obviously I shouldnt feel that way because she literally gave birth to me, but it doesn't fucking feel like she cares anyways. Sometimes I just want to run away from her forever, cut her off for good at my early age, but I can't. This world is too big for me to survive in on my own, I know that. Completely unrelated, but there's this dude. And I've liked him for like half of this year, but now I'm thinking it's better to just leave him alone. I know nothing about him, so it'd be better if I just left the poor boy alone. Maybe if I was prettier I'd be able to speak up and talk to him.