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Is it selfish of me to be jealous? Back in first year highschool, I only had one friend, she knew almost everyone and I would feel left out and jealous, then I met a friend that was like a brother to me from shs, i was happy to finally have my own friend but then she steps up and became friends with him, i got so jealous and annoyed as how she gets friends so easily while I struggle and cherish my only friend only for them to also be friends with her. Then I told my shs friend that I don't wanna talk about her anymore as we had fought, but it was a lie. Now, Im an shs student, there's a transferee that approached me online and wanted to become friends with me, it was a first, I was so happy to share and be friends with him, then I found out that the girl I'm jealous of was already friends with him, and closer with him as they do video chats everynight. Is it selfish of me to want a friend that only wants me as their friend and doesn't get friends with other friendly people? Even tho I'm friends with her I can't help but feel jealous as she always brags about how many guys like her as I get left out because I'm a stupid friendless awkward introvert.