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I am pretending not to miss the first love of my life. We spent every day together talking, texting, flirting, calling all night. We did a lot together and wouldn't go any day without seeing each other. But then she just decided that we were better off living in a world of what ifs, almosts, and half-truths. I can't hate her fully because im also to blame for what happened between us but I still miss her. She was the one person that made me feel so very happy in my world and now that we don't speak, my world has just gotten darker and colder. And I wish I could go back in time and find a way to keep what we had alive