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Today is the day, the first time I shall step in the gates of the university that millions of students dreamt of entering including me. I had done what I can do, I've prepared everything that I need. I could see my parents, friends, and everyone with expectations and their walls of support that reaches so high that it pains my neck to look up. I already had the experience of failing an application to a scholarship before, which is I feel not so nervous like a naive man who's dreams are not yet crushed. My eyes are exhausted, and my left hand shake from all the mock exams I've worked on that somehow gives me clues on what would be the result soon. This is the time I will rest, I do not know if all I did is enough. Do I have regrets? Maybe. The times I waste staring into space forgetting to review. Although, I keep telling myself if it is meant for me then it will be in my hands. Beneath all this uncertainty, there's still this lingering feeling that tells me. You have something what it takes. The only thing I will hold onto is the large dreams that me and my old self had been building and plotting for so long, even if I achieve those dreams please let me stay tender-hearted despite, despite, despite. See you soon U.P