How much worse?

Of course I'm doing horribly myself. I am getting by but not much more. I'm not safe. I can just fight through the peril of the world more effectively than others. I'm horrified of how dark things have gotten. I saw horror long ago and it's become even worse. I don't want to stay to see how much worse it gets. People are all so deeply stupid that they think using nonsense they swallow and puke back up will be effective on me. "sex work is work!" Yes I know prostitution is a form of unethical work. You think that's left wing or liberating to people when they are reduced to the amount of money that can be made from their body? If you advocated for a prostitute union then I'd consider you but you don't advocate for people. You scream stupid trash at me without context as if I'm the source of the problem instead of it's bane. I work to make it unnecessary for people to involve themselves in prostitution. No you don't owe me sex. No I don't owe you money. I'll pay your rent for one month if it helps you sort things out. The capitalist world is so disgusting and perverse that a woman abusing her workers is called empowerment while a man starting a union and helping all the workers in that union is called a villan and a bigot because he says that a ceo is pathetic and does not have the right to abuse workers. That same ceo practicing hinduva which is a real belief that other races and religions are inferior to their own and that hinduva bigot is called "representation". It just gets worse. Yes, it could get better but it hasn't gotten better and it won't. This is why I'm not afraid of death. I welcome it. Death is always close. It was my birthday recently and I just keep wondering if I will die by my own intent or by some mistake I make. I know it will be better for me when I finally close my eyes for the last time.