Social Isolation

(Apologies for poor grammar) Hello, this is essentially my first time here, Hopefully this complied with the rules 'round here.. And this is what I have in mind right now (Advice needed): - Generally, I feel like I'm not myself anymore. It feels like I'm a fraud to myself a few years back, or it just feels like I'm worse than before.. Though, what does this mean? — Well, because of this.. I don't like interacting with my friends and family even if I wanted to, I usually regret about missing the chance to talk at the end, Is it fear? Cowardice? I can't preservere, I cannot move on. Lately, I feel like I don't “Belong”. I have good friends, I admit it but somehow it feels extremely dull... A factor for why I dislike and want interaction at the same time.. Im now rotting in bed with an addiction to a rectangle piece of glass. How pathetic, I try to be optimistic, happy.. Maybe things will go my way.. only to get reminded by Reality of my arrogance. I don't move on. What does this mean for my social life? Is it so bad I'm actively going down a path where I'll potentially hurt or harm?.. Jeez, I hope this isn't too much of a “Problem”.. Right? Thank you for listening.