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I didn't notice it until my friend point it out "he is interested in you" I never think about anyone being interested in me, for all guys I might be ugly, no one ever chose me and I smell like people repelent. I am known for being relatable online and I love bekng myself even if it doesn't fit anywhere, but you appeared noticing me. How can I know if it is just kindness? Most of things check but you don't make plans with me.. am I in an evaluation? Cuz somehow in your way of getting my attention, you got my body trying to reach you and me smiling like dumbass. I am very touch deprived and all my relationships have been online, I am not pretty except for counted people I guess. When you look at me I feel like I am real. That time where we hug and look at each other smiling has become one of my hppy memories ever. Even if you dont like me like that, I know I want to make you happy and protect you, but due to my emotional pain I have to stop myself from get to you if I don't know the boundaries of whatever is happening here. I miss you why won't you talk to me online.. I just want to know you better and keep hugging you because I was never able to hug someone that made me feel alive.