Opinions

Whenever people think of me I hope they think of good things, If they feel pity, or concern in a "their weird" type of way It immediatly makes me want to disappear, like it makes me wish they forget I exist for a good few seconds But at the same time I complain to myself about being lonely, but I guess it really depends on the person And whenever I say what im feeling, in my head im just saying "so, isnt that just called being human, or having normal human emotions" so i dont say it at all cause im probably just complaining about stuff that does not fucking matter AT ALL😭😭 or im just sayin shit abt smth everyone feels like im special or something Then that brings me back to the point of me wishing people just forget I exist, and then the cycle continues But my advice for myself is, just because your emotion or situation isnt "special: or "different" doesnt make it not valid And I dont know if I hope I listen to my advice or if I hope I dont Honestly i just feel normal when im typing this, like casual I lowk wish someone could show me an example or meter of what level of a certain emotion i should be feeling at times like these so I can, idk honestly, see what im supposed to be experiencing. Like maybe I am feeling what this certain emotion is and its just not strong Or maybe im just not sure Or im not actually feeling the way i thought i was and im faking it Idk boi Ok bai