a member

I have a friend group, and one of the members left. I want to follow her footsteps and leave too. Im afraid to tell them. I am only close to one of them , but we in the same class and ive told her so its cool. The friend group has been dry, distant and it feels like im not supposed to be there, like im unwelcomed. Its mostly quiet. I cant even laugh at the jokes they make because the jokes are inside jokes. They dont bother even explaining. Everytime i go there i always pray recess ends quickly. I dont like them.