Insecurity

I am so ugly it hurts, I doubt my crush likes me.. My sister she has every thing, shes gorgeous, a pageant enthusiast and a model. Me? I'm just an artist just an artist. I have an asymmetrical face, uneven eyes and hip dips. I listen to subliminals because I am so helpless. No matter the angle, lighting, or the amount of make up I'll always be ugly. Some of us suffers because we didn't win the genetic lottery while theres beautiful people complaining their ugly while they have 20+ people crushing on them and they post themselves. I try to avoid mirrors now. I have no face, I have no ass, no boobs, no body I'm just ugly.