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for the longest time I've always like guys. I got crushes on them, I like to look at them, and all those stuff. As I get older, I realized I do like girls too. So since I was late teen to these previous week, I would say I'm bisexual. I was only recently noticed that I never really "love" a man. I always felt that it's easy to have crushes on guys, but never "love" them. I assume it's just because I never got close with any guy the way I do with girls. I don't easily have crush on woman. Honestly it's so rare I always felt more comfortable to say I was only into man to avoid being seen as "fake bisexual". However, I feel like I've only ever truly love woman(s) in my life. Who happened to be my best friends (some are no longer friends with me). not long ago, a guy I met in a dating app once started to messaging me again. I enjoyed the attention, but I don't feel like we could be anything more than that. When I imagined myself with him, I ended up imagining myself cheating with one of his friend who is a woman. I hate everything about this. I don't want another questioning in my life.