Okay ig

I won't ever tell my mother or my grandmother how I feel because they always end up not understanding or getting upset with me. My mother says she has some depression, but I dont really see that and thats against my better judgment. I as a Teen, mostly stay in my room And bedrot because I have depression and it makes me feel bad with feelings of self hatred and stuff. Anytime I try to open up to my mother or even my grandmother they dont really understand and they get upset, so then I feel sorry for them not understanding and I just quit telling them at all. I just want them to actually understand me, or listen to me. But I know they won't. It even got to a point where my grandma called me "selfish". Ive even convinced myself its my phones fault for how I feel and im even trying to limit my screen time to certain apps and certain times of the day. Ah, ive yapped too much I fear