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Everyday I exist is agonising, and I'm struggling to hold on, some things help me hold on but ik they r not good long term solutions, I so desperately want to feel alive but it's like I'm looking out of a window seeing ppl who r happy and alive while I am stuck in a pit of pain, it hurts to just exist and I want to be free of this torment, the temporary reliefs help but they fade quickly, and nothing conventional works, I don't know how to feel normal, I want this pain to end