"The man you meet at 19 will hurt you"

(May have grammatical errors but eh) I met this guy on my first year in college. He's a classmate but since he's ultra quiet, I didn't notice his existence until a few interactions with him mid first semester. But when a college event came he talked to me first, was very kind. At first I did get a little interested with him, because he's quiet and diligent etc. and I thought he's just a quiet chill guy. But once our friendship started booming, we got comfortable; he started messaging me randomly and I thought that he's just being friendly. But oh boyy, it was a start of something confusing. He'd send me things that has romantic contexts on TikTok, messages me almost so often, but never talks to me irl. And something that annoys me is that he'd be super confusing. Like I thought this guy was interested with me but he goes to talk about his exes and some random girl. He would be super chatty online but absolutely quiet and soft spoken irl, just looks and stares at me and it kinda bothered meee Eventually, he gets shipped to one of our classmates. She's pretty and kind so why not. I got a bit bitter but kinda happy because now I'd get this guy off of me. You know what happened? A gossip broke out that me and him were "talking" and the girl (who presumably liked him) gave up on him because of me. Like what? And earlier before I found out about that info, the girl keeps asking me (like playfully) if I have a boyfriend in which I say no. I genuinely hated the fact that people were talking about me and him. My thought process was "what if he finds out about this and ignores me or make things weirder". And it made me angry at him for no reason, and angrier at the perpetrators of the gossip, and somewhat the girl too (idk). It also led to me getting stomach aches and nauseous whenever they're around. Then, I just forgot about all of the romantic things, and at that point he asked me for a lot of favors. Like "do this, help me please, can you make this for me" which amplified my irritation for him and led me to block him multiple times and tell him off. And at some point, he left our 4 people gc and I assumed it was bc of me cuz of something that happened (not that serious) so I unfriended him and left the gc too. Though, he came back anyways, not realizing he had been removed from my friendlist. Then, he kept deleting our Convo so I just deleted it all at once. Then quiet. A few weeks passed and I reached out to him for something, like I'm starting to feel guilty for my actions and being too quick tempered with him. He's been too careful with what he says, would delete things ig he thinks would annoy me, bro is walking on eggshells but soon stopped doing so. We've returned to normal and normal means he's confusing again. He's going to tell me he's bored so I talk to him and I end up being seen zoned or he'd open up so many topics but ignore what I say. Like what. Something happened when we practiced a dance, a week before I tried asking him to join our dance and he agreed, saying he'd do so if I was partnered with him. But at that time my friends had my phone and we're kinda shocked of that. They then proceeded to tell me that he's cold and nonchalant. Totally not him for me. Dance practice came, people from the gossip era started shipping me and him so I picked someone else for a partner and bc some girl got dibs on him already. He was SO ANGRY 😭 like no talk angry, no look angry. But we returned to normals, wouldn't tell me why he's angry. More and more people find out what's going on between us. But even I don't know it really is. They'd notice his actions, they'd notice me fidget around and get hyper when he's around Last night, he asked me if I let others read on our conversation, and only two friends of mine does and they said no they didn't tell any soul which I trust (they're kinda trustworthy) and he told me to just forget he said any of that. Then we returned to this setup again. He sends me things to bait me for a conversation, he leaves or doesn't reply and if I don't reply, he deletes his messages. Honestly I just want assurance on whatever this is. And I'm kinda getting prepared because a romance between us is kinda impossible, religion wise. Iykyk.