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after the competition, we started talking more, and i'm really glad we met. one day i got curious and followed her second account. i get flustered every time she posts herself because she's genuinely so, so pretty. sometimes i keep reopening her stories just to look at her again. i know it's silly, but i just like looking at her, i guess. every new photo somehow makes my little crush grow even more. i even remember the smallest things she posts. sometimes i tell myself, "okay, don't look at it again" and somehow i end up opening it anyway. it's honestly a little embarrassing how easily she can make my day without even trying. the funny thing is, we don't even talk that much. i'm pretty sure she has no idea i feel this way. meanwhile, i'm over here getting excited over a random selfie or a simple story update, wondering if she knows how beautiful she really is. deep down, i don't think she'll ever like me back. not because she's unkind, but because we're both girls, and where i live, relationships like that are still judged by many people. maybe i'm setting myself up for disappointment, but i can't help how i feel. i don't expect anything from her. what do u guys think?