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I can't care about others and it really ruins my relationships. There have been times where my "friends" will tell me that they're on the verge of ending it and I have to pretend like I really care. Maybe it's because I know they won't do it. Maybe because I don't consider them a friend anyways, but still, a life is a life. Shouldn't I care? I am not concerned about being a bad person, but moments like these where I realize that I have little to no emotional depth makes me feel a need to better myself. This lack of empathy within me makes it so hard to form actually meaningful, long–lasting relationships. I can't really empathize with them. If it doesn't concern me or if I can't relate, I will not care. I mean, not like I don't care. I still try to comfort them, but I can't feel anything talking about it. In any case, it's more like a chore for me. Something I need to attend to so they won't leave me. I don't want to make it seem like I enjoy being this way. It is also a struggle for me as much as it can be to other people in my life. I know I need to better myself before I get any worse.