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Hey, you don't have to know my name yet. But I'm 17, and my dream is to be an idol. I have this uncertainty feelings since I was 15. I love watching idols through my screen, it feels like going home because I was really never had a place to called "home". I am a girl coming from a broken home family. Long story short, I'm in love with a Jpop artist. You might already heard her name somewhere, because she's literally everywhere now. She debuted in October 2020. And I discovered her one week after her debut. She's a loner, somehow I feel a weird connection to them. Not because I relate to her feelings, but this unexplainable connection like fate. I wanna work with her. She's a producer of a group too. But knowing my past and how untalented I am, it made me feel so down no matter how hard I try to ignore and keep practicing. My mum planned to send me in a college, she even planned my future. I just don't want to, I wanna debut as an Idol. But atbthebsame time, I feel it's also impossible for me knowing my past as a broken home and zero experience in entertainment agencies, dancing, and singing. I'm manifesting it here, maybe the universe will somehow give me a miracle. Thank you.